Wide horizon

They always say, that your horizon is great, that you have choices to make through your life. What they don't say, is that due to the horizon being so wide, it's hard to eyeball that distance. Indeed, I've had openings to possibly try alternate job opportunities recently that proved to be fruitless, but the others that I am truly awaiting are not coming as soon as I'd expected.
The one development position I desired was filled by another, hopefully a better choice then I. If not, I am going to all kinds of angry when the development team is tanked due to that additional dead weight. The other development opening that I've been told I am in the front running for seems to be a dangling carrot, always right there but never actually in reach. Things come up, which brings it in view and then things occur to then push it away.

Now, if I only had a means to MAKE it happen.

These wandering shoes are getting thin, and my legs are starting to cramp. I hope this path leads me to something more fulfilling, soon.

Moody

Yep. Moody.

Man, I hope no customers get in my way today. There's good news on the horizon, but even that's questionable at best. Sunny, happy outlook and crap. Yep.

Meh.

damned post

Man, I hate typing out a huge post, asking it to spellcheck, and then having all of that work disappear. 4 full paragraphs of angst, down the tubes. I guess it was good to get it out and on the screen, but largely angering to have lost it all. Feh.

So, no. The opening I applied for was taken by another. Was it for the best? I would like to think so. The last opportunity I lept for came to be entirely changed and if I actually was accepted would of fully hated the outcome. Hopefully, this is the same and I am not missing anything by not being admitted into the development side of things. But then again, I don't wish ill tidings on the crew that's there and certainly not on my partner that's within that very group that I most recently applied for.

The better outlook is that it was simply not for me, even though it hurts to be rejected.